Completely Different

It’s never good to compare one relationship to another relationship, everyone knows that, well everyone also knows I don’t follow rules, so I do it anyways. The difference is I take my mistakes from the ‘mine and Yorker’ relationship and fix them in this one before they become real problems. That way I don’t have that much to worry about in with this one, but this one is completely different from being with Yorker. Like everything about it is just different, in a good way though. The energy is different, I never feel like, ’agh another day’. I know that sounds bad but, sometimes that’s just how I felt with Yorker. We’ll give my new girlfriend the nickname of: Babayface, she has the cutest Babayface; please don’t tell her I said that [lol] but when Babayface be like, ‘let’s hang out’. My first thoughts are like ‘HECKS YES!’ Anytime I get to see her is just different I get butterflies and all happy kinda like that middle school love we all had, where you just get all bubbly inside and out, yeah I get that feeling all the time with her. This relationship just seems healthier, which I just learned that there’s a thing as a relationship being healthy or not. Never knew that until I watch Jersey Shore and I noticed how Sammie and Ronnie are, how I and Yorker was a lot of the time, which is completely bad and stressful. There’s a few things that I would change if I could but since I’m looking forward with Babayface, then there’s only one thing I need to work on; the fact that I can’t tell her how I feel about certain things at the time they happen. Like when she does something, I don’t tell her right then and there I have a fit and then she’s so caring she comes right after me and then we talk about it. I know why I do it, and I just need to work on that before this relationship takes a wrong turn because I can’t talk about stuff. But besides that, I’m very happy with my choices, everyone knows how I was about Yorker; and Babayface just makes me forget all about that. She’s caring, protective, and I think the best part is that we can lie down and talk about almost anything. I couldn’t do that before, and with her everything comes so naturally, sometimes its scary just for the simple fact I think that we’re moving too fast but when its this natural there’s no ‘too fast’. <333' TD <333'

Understand Me

What if you saw my arm one day? And all those bloody trails Will you be able to understand why? I cut when all else fails

Would you tell me to stop the cutting? Because what I do is wron Will you try to convince me again? That I’m really very strong

Will you tell me otherwise? When I say “you don’t understand” Answer this question Have you sat with a knife in your hand?

Have you even contemplated? Or thought about suicide Do you have any fucked up emotions? That you always try to hide

Have you ever lost a best friend? Because of the blade of a knife Are you stuck in deep depression? Always trying to end your life

Do you have the scars I have That decorates your wrist? And when you try to smile Do you smile with a twist?

How about all that precious blood That’s keeping you alive Do you shed it every night? Making it difficult to survive

Have you ever stayed up late? While endless tears you cried Have you felt that horrible feeling? Like part of you just died

Have you ever taken drugs? So the time will just pass by Have you found yourself to think? How perfect it’ll be to die

Have you attempted suicide so much? That you’ve already lost count Will even the tears you’ve ever cried? Add up to that amount

If you try to help me out Don’t assume you know how I feel The truth is you can’t mend my heart And you can’t make my cuts heal

So just answer all these questions Before you give me any advice Just think it over clearly Think it over twice